Forever Changed.....Carrie Underwood sings a song by this title. It is about the subtle slip of a person's mind as she ages. When I hear this song, I cry. Daddy.......things have changed within your mind but you are still Daddy. You talk of people who have long gone to be with God as if they were by your side. Perhaps in a spiritual sense they are. Things have changed but you are still Daddy. Sometimes you have a blankness in your eyes and then suddenly they awake with awareness. You get frustrated because you know things have changed for you. But you are still Daddy.
As you sift through memories, I
have begun to do the same, remembering you from the perspective of the
little girl I once was. We had fun, Daddy. You and Billy Matthews could
come up with such outrageous things like making turtle soup and frying
frog legs from frogs you caught. I remember the frogs because I
accidentally kicked over the bucket with the rest of them within. It
almost scarred me for life, not really, it is another precious memory.
You took us on trips all over the country so that we could see things
and experience life. We had fun, Daddy. Things are different now, but
you are still Daddy.
You walked me down the isle as a young lady and you whispered, "You can drop the aspirin now. Susan Williams
and Karen Wooten, you will know what he meant. You love Jon, my cowboy
Air Force Chaplain now pastor husband as if he were your own son. Your
mind goes other places now, but you are still Daddy.
last winter about "the kiss" as I call it. It only happens in winter and
it lasts for just a couple of minutes. At the end of the day as the sun
drops below the mountains,
it hits the snow covered peak of Treasure Mountain last. The peak turns
colors that can only exist from God's pallet; pinks and mauves and
almost burgundy. And then it is gone as if God brushes His lips across
the earth to end the day.
Our lives are like those moments. In
light of eternity, our lives are but the length of that final "kiss" of
brilliant color at the end of a winter day. So Daddy, this journey that
you are now on will in light of eternity be brief. But no matter where
your mind retreats to, you will still be Daddy. To God you will always
be his child, his beloved.
"Teach us to number our days aright
that we might gain a heart of wisdom.....Satisfy us in the morning with
your unfailing love, that we may sing for joy and be glad all our
days." Psalm 90:12 and 14